xoxoxoxo

It's been months since my last post~ Wad happened to me I don't know..... Just feel like writing this...... I dreamed and dreamed...... I tried~ Why are things always so tough for me? That night was the happiest day throughout the whole year~ You told me to wait for you..... It's crazy and I couldn't even convince myself to believe this~ You don't need twice to make sure you love me do you? You told me that it's the first time you watch fireworks in the ink black sky with a person you love~ I smile to myself and I am pretty sure this will be the first and the last time~ They are ordinary fireworks but it's indeed the prettiest I have ever seen~ Moving on is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life~ I remembered when I got back here I couldn't sleep for quite some time.... All I do is holding your guitar pick tightly between my palms and let the sizzling tears roll down silently~ I envy those that are under your care.... How much you cared for them, and I ask myself do you care for me as much as you cared for them? I am always a careless person, I didn't even notice that until you told me~ You are so observant..... I could always skip a few meals without noticing~ But you make sure I take every meal during my stay~ Will you be worry for me if I tell you that my habit of skipping meals has return???? I am not sure...... I am sure of nothing anymore~ You asked me," Wad if I am no more there to care for you, will you please take care of yourself for me?" No worries, I will~ I remember I ever asked you how long will your care for me lasts, one second? An hour? A day? A week? Or a month? And you told me that you are not sure~ Even though your care might last for only a second, I am positive that I am the luckiest girl in the whole wide world for that quick glance of second~ Thank you for the memory that I should cherish forever...... : )