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It's been months since my last post~ Wad happened to me I don't know..... Just feel like writing this...... I dreamed and dreamed...... I tried~ Why are things always so tough for me? That night was the happiest day throughout the whole year~ You told me to wait for you..... It's crazy and I couldn't even convince myself to believe this~ You don't need twice to make sure you love me do you? You told me that it's the first time you watch fireworks in the ink black sky with a person you love~ I smile to myself and I am pretty sure this will be the first and the last time~ They are ordinary fireworks but it's indeed the prettiest I have ever seen~ Moving on is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life~ I remembered when I got back here I couldn't sleep for quite some time.... All I do is holding your guitar pick tightly between my palms and let the sizzling tears roll down silently~ I envy those that are under your care.... How much you cared for them, and I ask myself do you care for me as much as you cared for them? I am always a careless person, I didn't even notice that until you told me~ You are so observant..... I could always skip a few meals without noticing~ But you make sure I take every meal during my stay~ Will you be worry for me if I tell you that my habit of skipping meals has return???? I am not sure...... I am sure of nothing anymore~ You asked me," Wad if I am no more there to care for you, will you please take care of yourself for me?" No worries, I will~ I remember I ever asked you how long will your care for me lasts, one second? An hour? A day? A week? Or a month? And you told me that you are not sure~ Even though your care might last for only a second, I am positive that I am the luckiest girl in the whole wide world for that quick glance of second~ Thank you for the memory that I should cherish forever...... : )

矛盾。。。

It's 2.00a.m. Listening to the tapping sound of the rain.... I am staring at the screen of the computer.... I dunno wad I am looking at, somehow I just couldn't focus on wad I am looking at... I thought I was ok, I mean it's been months.... But somehow I am not.... The dream of mine seems so real, but I know it was just a dream.... I woke up and my eyes were warm.... Then tears started rolling down.... Falling in love with you was the largest mistake I have made...... 梦里的我要求好少好少，单是看着你就好满足。。。You have choose to move and I did the same.... But somehow I couldn't........

Jane is NUTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LOL... Jane is nuts! Green Tea noodles.... OMG.... Wad have gotta into me? Well... I guess I am really in love with you, green tea..... My sweet heart.... LOL.... As long as I am with you, I am complete..... Wahahahaha........ Not to forget chocolates... This box of swiss classic chocolates is beyond discription... They are yummy... When it melt inside your mouth, you feel heavenly..... I got this from my dad.... He bought this in euro... Well.. My mum told me that this box of chocolates cost around RM 150... LOL... But I guess it's worth it... Coz it's super delicious..........:)

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Well... I finally got the courage to take this necklace off my neck.... It's been weeks.... I have been hesitating whether to take it off or not... I am wearing this all the time... And now removing it, I have to admit it feels kinda weird... But I know I will soon be fine.. This will be the last photo I have wearing the necklace... I know it's all over... For those who know where and how I got this ring, you know how much this mean to me.... Well... It's all over right now... I need to move on... I am crying so hard... But I know I need to be tough........................................

1 Corinthians 13:4 - 7 "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices........

October 3......

Woww... It's been a long time since my last posting which is about a week ago.... Well... Exam's coming up... So a bit busy.... By the way, I finally found wad I love besides chocolates.... It's green tea... OMG... I am so in love with the colour and the taste of it.... Coz yesterday I drank Green Tea Macha.... It's fabulous.... OMG... I can still remember the taste of it.... And today when I went shopping with my mum, I look at all the green packages.... LOL... Am I out of my mind? Ugh.... After that, I ate green tea soft ice-cream.... OMG.... I am in heaven..... It's the best thing that happen in my life.. LOL.... Just joking... Anyway, it's yummy.... Well... I just met a guy in facebook today... He's from china but he lives in new york now.... He looks like a korean though.... That's wad I think.. LOL... Well... He asked for my msn id.. So gave him... Then we chat and chat and chat.... Then he told me he once have a girlfriend.... But he lose her in an accident... Car accident.... I felt really sorry for him.... And I actually cried out.... What I am thinking right now is.... Cherish everything that you have right now before it's too late... Before you lose them.... Everything in our life is temporary... Love those that you wanna.... Be sure to talk from your heart and tell the ones that you cares about how you felt.......... Well... I guess that's all.... Take care guys.........

Me......:)

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September27.....

Sorry coz I didn't update my blog for a long time.... Coz these few days quite busy.... LOL... Shaun... Shaun.... This few days gila already.... Every night we also chat for hours on the phone... Talk bout nonsense mostly.... Yesterday... Or should I say today morning? wadever lar.... Broke the record... We talked and talked and talked till 3.30a.m. OMG.... Really gila.... Shaun... You really have to study extra hard if you wanna excel in your exams.... You told me that you finally dun feel sleepy anyway when you are studying Sejarah.... Keep up the good work.... You really have to get good marks to prove that I am a good organizer....Helping you to organize your study schedule.... Dun make my disappointed... If you really leave, your friend adur and all of us ig gonna miss you a lot.... LOL.... So I guess that's it.... Good luck, I will cross my fingers for you........:)